Finding Peace and Bliss: A Path to Krishna
Your longing and pain are understandable, but let me guide you in finding a way to lead a better life filled with peace and happiness. You mentioned feeling like crying as you remember and long for Krishna. It is natural to have such feelings, but what you need to consider is how to channel these emotions into a positive and transformative journey.
Welcoming Krishna into Your Heart
Welcoming Krishna into your heart is not about waiting for him to come back to you. Krishna is already a part of your life. He is always with you, and you can keep him in your heart just a little bit. This tiny bit is enough for your entire life. Once you do that, you can focus on leading a better life and spending more time for yourself. Krishna is always with you, so you don’t need to waste hours in worship.
Developing Love for Vrindavana Dhama
To deepen your love for Krishna, focus on developing a pure love for Vrindavana Dhama by constantly hearing the glories of Sri Vrindavana Dhama. This practice will help awaken your love for Krishna. As the verse from the Vrindavana Mahimamrta suggests, the more you love Vrindavana, the more you will love Krishna. Here is a relevant verse:
Verse: v sindanti yāvat praaya na mandā vndāvane prema-vilāsa-kande
tāvan na govinda-padāravindasvacchanda- sad-bhakti-rahasya-lābha
As much as they do not love Vrindavana, the root from which Krishnas pastimes of love sprout, to that extent the fools are not able to find the great secret of spontaneous transcendental love for Lord Govindas lotus feet.
The Power of Chanting
Chanting the holy names of Krishna, performing both japa and Sankirtana, is a powerful means to quickly develop pure love for Krishna. By constantly chanting the Hare Krishna mantra, one can not only destroy the sinful condition of material existence but also purify the unclean heart and awaken all varieties of devotional service. Here are some verses from the Caitanya Caritamrta that support this:
Verse 1: sakīrtana haite pāpa-sasāra-nāanancitta-uddhi sarva-bhakti-sādhana-udgama
By performing congregational chanting of the Hare Krishna mantra, one can destroy the sinful condition of material existence, purify the unclean heart, and awaken all varieties of devotional service.Verse 2: ka-premodgama premāmta-āsvādananka-prāpti sevāmta-samudre majjana
The result of chanting is that one awakens his love for Krishna and tastes transcendental bliss. Ultimately, one attains the association of Krishna and engages in His devotional service as if immersing himself in a great ocean of love.
So, my dear friend, let us together follow this path to find peace, bliss, and a deeper connection with Krishna. May your journey be filled with joy and spiritual fulfillment.
Hare Krishna