Reflections on Leaving Jehovah’s Witnesses
For many years, I dedicated my life to Jehovah’s Witnesses, believing wholeheartedly in the teachings and mission of this religious organization. However, my journey of faith was fraught with a series of events that ultimately led me to disillusionment and disassociation.
The Final Straws
One of the most painful moments in my journey was when I was threatened with being not only deleted as an elder but potentially disfellowshipped for refusing to eat a kidnapped animal without ketchup. While this might sound humorous, the underlying message was clear: obedience to the organization's irrational demands was expected, even when it went against moral principles.
Another pivotal moment came when I was informed that I would be disfellowshipped for refusing to protect a pedophile. The cruelty of the Governing Body in such matters is not only shocking but deeply troubling. The notion that those in power can disregard the well-being and safety of individuals, particularly vulnerable ones, is a severe breach of ethical and moral standards.
The Cruelty of the Governing Body
In 2015, the organization let go of thousands of special full-time servants, a decision made without considering the long-term impact on their lives. During my time in Bethel, I met people who had been serving for over 15 years, yet they were given a few months to leave their assignments with little or no support. This practice was not only cruel but also insubstantial in its approach to handling valued members.
During the lockdown, the organization focused on other projects rather than the important work of preaching. I began to question whether the Governing Body truly believed the end was near. When my mind turned to the suffering of those who dedicated their lives to the organization, I decided to investigate further. The more I looked into the history and practices of Jehovah’s Witnesses, the more I was horrified by the unChristlike actions and the lack of love and truth displayed towards fellow members, ex-members, and non-members alike.
Theoretical vs. Practical Examinations
The May 2015 Broadcast by Stephen Lett highlighted the need for more funds for building Kingdom Halls, revealing the organization's priorities. Despite spending millions on properties and luxurious apartments for leaders, the organization struggled to provide support to those in need. This contradiction between action and belief was glaring, and it led to a profound realization that what I believed was not aligned with the teachings of the true religion.
During the conventions in 2015 and 2016, the themes of "Imitate Jesus" and "Let Your Brotherly Love Continue" did not reflect the reality of the organization's practices. The contrast between these ideals and the actions of leaders who engaged in unchecked nepotism, financial excess, and emotional cruelty was stark.
The Decision to Disassociate
After several months of research and introspection, I came to the painful and distressing realization that what I was witnessing was far from the truth of God's kingdom. Despite the overwhelming love and devotion within the organization, the actions and policies of leaders cast serious doubts on the organization's authenticity and moral standards.
Attempting to disassociate myself from the organization was difficult, as I had close relatives who were active members. However, I ultimately decided to step down as an elder and remain inactive. The decision to part ways was not made lightly, but it was a choice that resonated with the core values I now hold. It was a journey of heartache, but also one of re-evaluating what I believed in and standing by my convictions.